40days plan

i've got myself a 40days plan..
its been so long i've work on the-thing
that it frozen me
i hope i can once again care and feel about those minor things
so the plan is, isolation 40days from it

so this is day 1,
its my week4 of 3rd semester
worked on 2 subjects, so far so good
abandoned 1 subject, wanted to go for it
but it seem like 'something' still bothering me
another subject still in silence mode, its ok

supposely, today gonna meet up with a friend back from india, again
but it was given such short notice.
like 12pm only i received the message
and i have to make a choice between,
give up 2 friends and drive in peak hours
(btw, i have to give transportation to my mother before it all...
which i drove almost 1.5hours out of 3hours)
= =
in the end i decided not to do the meeting with friends
but it looks like the plan canceled BECAUSE of me
it sucks
im not gonna take the fault
im not the only 1 can drive among the group
they still can go on with the plan without me

someone told me before,
i have to stop being pushover
stop being someone's 'ahmad'
stop being 'I'll-be-there-whenever-u-call-me'
have to learn to say 'no'
"TAK NAK"
lol

so that is all,
i will try to flip open the 1st page,
start reading...

ps: will be without internet connection for the rest of the week,
modem and router are fried after yesterday lightning storm
i'll miss u, internet~